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July 08, 2005 / Friday
Will I Delete This Before It Publishes?
I feel I've been quiet here lately.
I haven't exactly been speaking my mind.
Why? Maybe it's because readership is too high. Maybe it's because the internet is too small. Maybe it's because the world is full of rotten eggs. Maybe it's because I don't want to offend. Maybe it's none of those. Maybe it's one of those. Maybe it's all of those.
Maybe it's more.
I've been writing incomplete posts. I write a draft, I read the draft, and as I'm reading, I think of who might read it too.
I then delete the draft.
This blog used to be my release valve. I ranted without a care. Now, I censor myself. I'm all too aware that what I write may offend an acquaintance, incite a whackjob, catch the attention of the SS...
I wish I could not care.
I wish it were that simple.
July 8, 2005 08:17 PM | Blog/Website
Comments
What? No juicy gossip? You can replace all the names with mine, then I can just pretend it's always about someone else that you are really talking about (even if it's really me). :-)
Posted by: KarenB at July 9, 2005 11:43 AM
hey, screw you!
this post really offends me, I'm canceling my subscription AND writing to my congressman!
sadly, though, i know exactly what you mean, even though I have all of 3 readers on my blog. counting me.
Posted by: bubka^4 at July 9, 2005 02:28 PM
Excuse me, sir, your subscription fees are deliniquent. I shall have to sic a collection agency on you.
Karen, your comment had me thinking, great, what if people read this and think that I'm talking about not being about to talk about them?
:-/
Posted by: Viv at July 9, 2005 02:31 PM
I dunno...if people think you are thinking about not writing about them because you think they might read it, then maybe they won't act in a way that makes you think you can't write about them.
Ugh, too much thinking.
Posted by: KarenB at July 9, 2005 02:35 PM
I think my head is going to explode.
Posted by: Viv at July 9, 2005 02:38 PM
omg, are you talking about me?! =P
ugh, karen, you made my head hurt!
Posted by: i, andrea at July 11, 2005 01:08 PM
Well, now that you've figured it out, I suppose I should just go ahead and say all the things I haven't been saying about you here.
Posted by: Viv at July 11, 2005 01:10 PM
you can always use psuedonyms, i.e. evil egg ran me over in hockey, good egg A-Z and I went to the movies, boytoy egg and I had dinner. }=)
Posted by: evilegg at July 12, 2005 10:54 AM
But if the pseudonyms figure themselves out, I'm in even bigger trouble!
Posted by: Viv at July 12, 2005 10:57 AM
Well you're free to use any of mine, same reasoning as KarenB...if I'm worried that I've done something wrong or to hurt you, I'm pretty sure I'd try to address it with you to correct the matter provided you wanted to talk about it. And if I haven't then I'm a dense knucklehead and deserve the verbal thrashing.
Posted by: evilegg at July 12, 2005 12:13 PM
That was a *lot* easier to understand than what KarenB wrote, which I had to read aloud several times before I understood!
For most of the people who comment here, I would talk to them directly if I were upset about something.
Most of the people that fall into the I'd better not write about them here category are those that we know, and who probably don't read my blog, but could, and are likely to either stumble upon it or be sent a link to it.
Whackjobs aren't pleasant either, but generally they're not people I will see in meatspace, which is, fortunately, larger than the internet.
Posted by: Viv at July 12, 2005 01:12 PM