Some thoughts from my sit today.
One might say that I’m not “supposed” to be thinking during my sits, but sitting works way better when you don’t hold yourself to supposed tos.
It’s not about sitting really still. It was probably that belief that made 30×11 so difficult.
For me, the great challenge when I sit now is that fact that there is so much going around me, inside me, and in my mind. I only notice these things when I’m still.
It takes about 15 minutes for my mind to really settle. When it does, I’m finding I can truly observe my breath without trying to control it.
Speaking of time, my current conundrum is I want to set my timer for 30 minutes, but that seems too long, so I set it for 20 minutes, and I’m only really settled for 3-5 minutes at the end. Having said that what does “seems too long” even mean? Am I afraid I won’t be able to sit for that long? So what if I don’t? There is no supposed to, remember?
Next sit, 30 minute timer.