Hooray, it’s over! 30 Days of “meditation”. The last 10 days were a chore. Meditation is not for me!
30 Days ago, I said:
If you’re reading this, you know me, and you know that I do not sit still. I put this item on my 30 Days list at the very beginning, and every month I’ve looked at it and thought, “There is no way I can make myself just sit for ‘x’ number of minutes every day for a month.”
If learning to sit still was the point of meditation, I’ve accomplished it. I’ve gotten really good at sitting really still and counting breaths, letting my mind wander, etc.
When I reread 30×11 Begin I realized I never talked about what the point was of all this. I suppose I didn’t really know. I figured I’d try to meditate and see what happened. As I did it more and as I read more about it, I understood it to mean a practice in which I could clear my mind of all the noise and worries of everyday life. Either that, or a practice that would teach me to focus.
By that definition, I haven’t accomplished what I set out to learn. That’s okay.
Mike! sent me an email yesterday asking about sitting-really-still meditation vs. mountain biking. Do I feel more “meditated” sitting really still trying to meditate, or piloting the perfect ride?
I’m really glad he asked that, because it made me think about something I’ve known but hadn’t thought about in the context of this 30 Days. If the purpose of meditation is to focus or to clear my mind, there is no better way for me to do that than to ride my mountain bike or play some hockey. I consider meditation a method of achieving flow, and I’m the type of person who flows by moving dynamically, not sitting still.
I will wrap up this 30 Days by declaring that meditation is not for me. Some people find their flow on a yoga pillow. I find mine on dirt and ice, and I feel lucky and grateful to have found it.