It’s been almost 3 months since I started this Adventure. I’ve been really really patient about completing it.
Kidding! That’s a lame excuse and everyone knows it.
It was interesting for me to watch myself re-read this chapter, because I’m quite impatient when I read. I just want to get to the end of the paragraph, sentence, article, and I can’t get there fast enough. Why must I spend time reading? It’s too slow. There must be a better way. My brain needs a direct connection to the Internet.
Know what’s worse than reading? Watching video. Video forces me to spend a set amount of time on information intake. I rarely find the time to be worth the content, unless I’m stuck on a plane.
This probably explains why I can only listen to podcasts when I’m multitasking. If I’m going to only listen to a podcast, I might as well read about whatever they have to say. It’s faster.
Enough about being impatient. Let’s talk about driving, an activity that turns many people into impatient rage monsters.
That used to be me. But I haven’t felt anything close to impatience or rage in a long time.
It’s not that I’ve become a road Buddha*. I definitely notice when I find myself behind a Z3 going 25 miles per hour on a fun twisty road**. But catching that initial feeling and realizing there’s no point in getting worked up about it lets me relax and enjoy the beautiful drive.
I guess that’s what’s changed for me. I notice when I start to feel a little off, evaluate that feeling, and change course. Feeling impatient is unpleasant. Why is going faster so important, anyway? In most cases, it’s not.
The same goes for grocery store lines and waiting rooms.
Back to reading. Maybe I should learn to speed read?
Actually, I already kind of do. From Slack a couple weeks ago:
Coworker: seriously, how do you read these that fast
Me: i don’t actually read anything i just scan for info
Me: my reading comprehension is crap, as my guidance counselor told me years ago
I did a search on speed reading just now, and a quick scan through the Wikipedia article on speed reading has me wondering if my comprehension problem is a direct result of how I read.
Someone please actually read this article and tell me if I properly comprehended it.
Anyway, I’m pretty sure learning to speed read was not the point of this exercise. I’ll have to think on this one. Taking my time learning things is in direct conflict with my desire to Learn All The Things! So much to learn, so little time.
Elephant Adeventure 45: Anxiety
* Fun fact: I had a little plastic capsule machine Buddha on the dashboard of my Civic back in my impatient rage monster days. I retrieved it from the junk yard after I totaled my car. I guess it didn’t work.
** True story from last weekend. I quite enjoyed the beautiful drive, and was amused when all my other ride buddies complained about the slow Z3 on the way to the trailhead.